I am behind and I know the reason why

I am behind in my personal and professional life because the police / CPS continue to put my life on hold so that my perpetrators can go on living undisturbed & unprosecuted, awarded freedoms that I will never have until they are locked away from society - never investigating my perpetrators despite the fact that my case has been ready and fully-evidenced since before I moved to London at age 18. Since I reached out for help at 14. I am 21 now but my goal remains the same: justice for myself and anyone who has been or can be harmed by my perpetrators. Nothing more and nothing less.

Make no mistake, I am resilient and when I talk unabashedly about these situations that is because I believe the truth is very important and the only way change is brought about. It is not because I have given up hope. I will never relent and there is always hope to be found. It could be another 5 months, it could be another 5 years, because I know my truth will remain the same in 50, and I cannot stop until something is done.

I will keep moving forward with my life against the attempts to hold me back and stop me point-blank but I will not allow my perpetrators, their enablers, or the Metropolitan Police and Hertfordshire Constabulary to get away with all the evasions of the law, breaches of duty of care, and outright crimes. At the very least, I will never be silent, and I will not settle for mere tolerance of my free existence and my voicing of these allegations, now that they have halted actively trying to intimidate me into dropping my allegations against my parents and police officers - they do not allow me to report crimes, even with the involvement of women's domestic abuse charities. I have been to the police station with an advocate, I have called and emailed and been given police contacts who all have ghosted me. But I do not have to accept that and no one can make me accept these injustices and pathetic failures. I will keep raising my voice and I don't care if it deafens them.

I will challenge the UK Legal System for as long as it takes. My other choice is to look over my shoulder all my life as my perpetrators and their friends continue stalking me with the threat of eventual violence very statistically probable. My perpetrators have inherently violent pasts; as long as they avoid ultimate legal repercussions, I can never exist safely. I know I deserve to live openly. I know I deserve freedom. I deserve not to be another fatal victim of familial domestic violence like the news that we all see every day. I deserve justice and that is something I will always stand for; something that nobody's intimidation or evasion can ever take from me. Fatigue may slow me down but it certainly isn't stopping me. I WILL see change in my lifetime. I will be the change. I am not alone in my fight for these rights. I demand change for all the women & girls and survivors & victims of violence such as domestic violence and GBV who deserved and deserve to be protected.